swimming away aimlessly without thought: a pet fish, seemingly the one pet you can first entrust the care of to a child. low-maintenance, unassuming in their tank, and pleased with the synthetic mediocrity of its environment. food dribbles down from what it assumes is the threshold of it’s being.
ryan wilks is a kansas city artist who conceived & executed a public altar space called 'here where you wish' in collaboration with ari fish, sean prudden, and tim j. harte (aka dungeonmaster). over 28,000 people visited the altar; leaving personal objects and writing down their wishes.
when i was twelve my family moved from rural missouri farm town to west chicago suburbs. it was a culture shock in the best way and i enjoyed my time there immensely before I moved to kansas city.
the film touches greatly upon the theme of self-destruction. any human who has experienced depression in their life has been inside of the shimmer. i like to believe alex garland sees the shimmer as the place a person is when overwhelmed with feelings of isolation and dread. it is a space that confines you, scares you - but where the inner-workings are wondrous and beautiful. the old adage for artists is to use your feelings of existential dread as the fuel for your art. this could be one reason the shimmer is depicted as a place of undiscovered beauty while being the horrifying, crawling catalyst of everything that happens in the film - and what is ultimately happening is change.
creatively stale is an apt description of my current lately as life has not been the most pleasant. i have learned a lot about how i handle hardship and it turns out my ways aren't the best. isolation from others and withholding stress doesn't do much but make it worse. and so the world spun.
at 7:40 am, december 4th 2017 i learned that my good friend Zach was shot and killed the night before while being robbed at gunpoint. the murderer demanded Zach and his friend's money. the murderer received Zach's phone & wallet. Zach was still killed while his phone and wallet were found in the grass right down the street.
if you are reading this you probably know me on some personal level or at least see me on facebook from time to time.